Why I've Been Abstinent for 9 (Almost 10) Years: The Truth
This is a long and complicated answer, but I'm going to tackle it today because there are two questions I get asked most frequently:
Why
1. Angie, what do you do for a living? How do you make your money?
2. Why have you practiced abstinence for so long?
Today, I'm addressing my second most-asked question.
First, let's break down this timeline. For the first three years of my chosen abstinence, I was still married but legally separated from my husband. Because we remained legally married, I wanted to honor that commitment and didn't go outside our marriage. Instead, I maintained my own space - no longer sharing a bedroom or bed with him. I was attempting to save my marriage, but due to our serious issues, I wasn't willing to be sexual with him until we addressed fundamental problems within our relationship.
For the next three years, I was in love with a false twin flame. As a Scorpio Venus, I'm not capable of being intimate with someone else when my heart belongs to another. I remained true to him because of my love, despite the circumstances.
The following two years of my abstinence were dedicated to healing after my false twin flame betrayed me. I had two years of deep-seated anger to release before I could consider being intimate with another person.
In reality, it's only been in the last year and a half that I've been emotionally capable of being intimate with someone. However, after doing so much healing work and recognizing my worth, there's no way I could just give myself to somebody casually.
I recognize the Goddess that I am and the divine feminine energy that resides within me spiritually. If you think Goddess Aphrodite or Goddess Lilith opened their legs for just anybody, you are gravely mistaken.
I recognize the diamond that I am. I've never had an STD - my body is clean (including parasites, as statistics show 98% of people have parasites in their bodies, and I don't - I do parasite cleanses several times a year). My pH is balanced, and spiritually speaking, my "waters" (in a metaphorical sense) are like those of a pure alpine glacier lake - untoucuntouchedhed and drinkable from the source because it hasn't been damaged by pollution (other people's energy). The average person doesn't recognize energy, and they're dealing with mucky, muddy waters that might make you sick.
I see sex as a spiritual ritual when you love someone, not as something casual. When you engage in casual sex, you put your body at risk for disease (even with protection, you're still at risk). You risk pregnancy from a casual connection, which creates greater challenges for mothers in the long run. You're muddying your spiritual waters with people who are disgusting and have mucky spiritual energy. That mucky water transfers to you, and the more you engage in casual encounters, the muddier your own spiritual waters become. Over time, you no longer have pristine, pure waters - you have a sewer or a swamp.
My self-esteem, self-awareness, and confidence are too high to give myself to just anybody. Those engaging in casual sex, one-night stands, or situationships typically lack self-esteem and self-love. Anyone who recognizes their worth (male or female) isn't out here spreading themselves thin sexually. They recognize their divinity, they recognize their worth, and they act accordingly.
I'm not capable of having casual sex. First, it's not fun for me without a solid foundation of trust with that person, and there's no emotional connection. Those just happen to be the two elements that make sexual activity enjoyable for me. If it's not going to be fun, why would I engage in it? I need a man I can trust - a man with whom I've established a solid foundation of trust - because for sex to be enjoyable for me, I either engage in kink or make love. Those are my two preferences, and I'm not doing that with someone I don't know and trust.
Lastly, I have standards for the man I engage with sexually. He must meet my standards. He must be "God level" - and how many high-vibrational, god-level men do you see walking around? Enough said. Most men haven't done their healing work; they live in privilege. From a sexual perspective, most men don't see the body as a temple, sex as a ritual, or have a problem with muddying their spiritual energy. Many men lack the self-awareness, self-love, or self-esteem to abstain from women with low vibrations. The man I choose to give my body to must recognize his Godhood, have done his healing, and be capable of abstinence or celibacy before I would be willing to give him my body.
People think I remain abstinent because I hate sex or I'm asexual - that's not the case at all. Simply put: I recognize my worth and refuse to give my body to some undeserving lusty loser with mucky waters who might infect my body. I'm actually a very sexual woman. I love sex. I masturbate quite often, read smutty books, and watch smutty videos when pleasing myself. I'm kink-friendly and have done my sexual healing, so I'm free to express myself sexually with a partner of my caliber.
I was surprised to learn that in CIA spy training, the first thing they teach male spies is how to contain and control their sexual energy. A man who can't contain or control his sexual energy is a liability - not only to himself but to everyone around him, including his family, lover, and job. Men incapable of celibacy or abstinence are simply men, not gods, and they don't make good leaders.
I also realized that as a Goddess, my sexual energy will heal him, help him manifest faster, and bless his life in ways he can't fathom. Why would I offer that blessing to just anybody?
I am rare, exclusive, and unattainable to the masses. Not everyone is granted access to something truly luxurious and one of a kind. The world is full of things that are common and easily obtained - but rarity? Rarity is sacred.
My energy, my body, my presence… they are not meant for everyone. I am not something to be casually experienced. I am the Bugatti in a world full of Toyotas -exclusive, high value, and unforgettable. 🖤✨
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